Transcendent Artist, Poet, Photographer, Film-maker, Author and Spiritual Leader
Although I consider myself an artist on every level, I’ve become all things to all people. Meaning whatever and whoever God needs me to be – I AM.
Born in Austin Texas in the early 1970’s, I lived here for nearly the past 47 years. Together with God we’ve seen the world for a very very very long time. Its such an honor to reveal our message from this beautiful city.
I grew up in a close nit family, they’ve all witnessed the differing stages of my development. From early childhood to my adolescent escapades, Austin has been home to my birth and now my spiritual rebirth.
Born to 2 hardworking parents, they’ve helped me in more ways than I can truly describe. Going through the changes to overcome myself and the worldly struggles I encountered, I know couldn’t have become who I AM without their assistance.
Settling down after so many years of being caviler. Its easy to understand why most were skeptical of this incredible change. It seems God has a special place for the outcasts, the really lost ones. The one’s society gives up on. He has a way of bringing wonderful blessings to life through the broken. He fixes us then turns us into something useful. He’s certainly done that for me.
Your welcome to explore my journey further, buckle up
Your understanding of life is about to change.
1 Corinthians 9:19-23
19 For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win the more; 20 and to the Jews I became as a Jew, that I might win Jews; to those who are under the law, as under the law, that I might win those who are under the law; 21 to those who are without law, as without law (not being without law toward God, but under law toward Christ), that I might win those who are without law; 22 to the weak I became as weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all men, that I might by all means save some. 23 Now this I do for the gospel’s sake, that I may be partaker of it with you.
Before The World Changed
Fast Paced Lifestyle
I suppose its a challenge to read of someone doing something like what we’re revealing here. I remember how the world changed though. I recall the old me running in circles going nowhere. For years I’d gone in every wrong direction doing every wrong thing you can possibly imagine. (or some variation of it anyway)
It was quite the surprise God would share with me such an incredible gift.
I was so consumed with myself for so long. If you’ve ever been to Austin, Texas you know about the nightlife. Imagine being so well plugged in and knowing club owners and everyone on the DT scene, how easy it was to get caught up. At first it was the allure and ambiance, but soon the lifestyle had consumed me and after a while it was about desire and seeing how high I could go and studying the after affects, ready for the next good time.
This part of the story is important to understand because while many thought I was merely self destructing, I was on a mission to uncover what had led me to do the sort of things consuming me. Why was I pushing my limits and finding none? Why night after night was I looking for something I couldn’t find but what seemed like I already had.
It was the combination of self-centeredness and apathy that had me lost in the world. I hadn’t realized how far removed from God I was until I awoke spiritually. I wasn’t who I thought I was or where I knew I should be. There were many others lost in confusion too and suffering right along side me. I remember as I got back, how I prayed hoping to end human suffering. It was because I’d been through it and didn’t want others to have to suffer in that same sort of way either.
By the time I hit bottom I hadn’t any friends. My family didn’t want to see me that way so they couldn’t be around. I went through relationships daily because they were so one sided I couldn’t be with anyone. (all that me me me me me sort of stuff)
I surrounded myself with liars, misfits, and the ones who didn’t mind my behavior. The ones doing the same sort of things. The same ones The Bible speaks of when it tells of unrighteousness. I was consumed by the world and was handed over to myself. I tell you this for certain, had I not found God I wouldn’t have made it back to life.
Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way leading to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it. Matthew 7:13-14
Just so you fully understand of how far I fell and how amazing God’s grace is; I’ve sinned more than you all. I cursed more, doubted more, was more poor in spirit than you. I slept around more than you, did more drugs than you. Drank more than you. Smoked more than you. Cheated more than you. Took more than I gave and was more selfish than you can imagine.
I was told by The Arc Angels,
I was the worst one and the best one at the same time.
Apparently because of what I was put thru being who I AM. In my heart I knew the right thing but with my actions I did just the opposite. So many caught up in the same manner today, thinking themselves to be good when deep down they’re doing wrong.
For God to love me at my worst and bless me beyond measure reveals His grace. Although I had fallen so far away I never lost faith, I lost myself in the world. There’s a big lesson here because so many lose faith in God as they fall away and often don’t make it back because of pride and ego. Its a sad thing to witness but they disqualify themselves from God’s blessings because of wrongdoing, lacking humility, the worldly ones get consumed by desire and lost in condemnation.
My fast paced lifestyle had caused me to put myself first and that is the problem with the world. They want what they want when they want and however they want it. Its the me me me me . . . its about me thing. Too busy giving our selves whatever we want we lose sight of that its not about us individually, (life) but rather about God, and then others collectively.
As children we begin life somehow knowing this but as we mature we face the world and without proper foundation we can falter or be misled away to do the sort of things we know aren’t right. The sinful nature of man is one of the things we all face in this world. Perhaps the greatest reason for needing to understand the gift of salvation and what God sacrificed for us to have life. Its not an easy journey but learning to stand upright and walk is something we’re all meant to learn and do.
The World Changed
“Becoming a blessing is something we should all aspire to.” – James Martinez
The struggles I have endured in the last 3 decades are but a part of life. We all face adversity, we all face obstacles. Sometimes its the world, other times its otherworldly people. But, often our biggest obstacle is simply ourselves. The thing to remember is we all face trials, we should stay mindful we’re all going through something at any given moment.
Our job is not to judge one another for whatever we’re suffering or being called to endure, but rather to pray for everyone and to help in any way we can. Not so that we can get them to be like us, but so that we can show them “The Way” God hopes for us all to live with Him. So we can be of service when a person truly needs help, so that we can live in harmony with The Lord, doing more for the needy helping create a better world.
If you’re still caught up with the ways of the world or perhaps still stuck in your self, this message might be a bit difficult to understand. I see the world and those of it suffering needlessly and it breaks my heart to think there are many who won’t be making it to heaven, and many more thinking they’re on their way but who’ll discover the bitter truth of their actions as they’re weighed and measured.
I will tell you this, If God can do what He’s done for me I know for certain He can do greater things for you. Wherever you are, whatever you’re suffering – there’s hope. Don’t give up! If you’ve lost sight of the truth and the way I hope you’ll try harder, that you’ll look up and examine yourself and work to improve your way of life.
Being alive through Christ is not the same as being awoke, its not the same as being spiritual or religious. Being reborn is not just about having belief God exists, being reborn in “The Spirit” makes us whole in God – spiritually speaking. Being reborn is a process of dying to oneself in the flesh then awakening to “The Truth” of who we are united with The Lord in One Spirit.
Jesus once said, to see the kingdom of heaven we must be reborn. I tell you, everyone one of us shall be reborn when we transition from this life into the next, but there’s one important lesson to consider. How we live here and now determines where that will be. Being reborn through God’s gift of life (salvation) allows us to begin living heaven on earth.
Before I had came back to life I went through some of the most challenging circumstances. Even after spiritually awakening and later being reborn in spirit, I suffered at the hands of the world. (like Jesus and others who’ve found The Truth of life and death) The point is that once I was lost but now I AM found.
There’s not a day goes by where I don’t thank God for His sacrifice, for being patient with me all those years and for not giving up when everyone else had. I understand how special a gift life is now, now that I’m living the life He saved with purpose and direction. My vow was to go in whichever way He led. Today this vow has brought us here. I hope as you read this you’ll understand the sacrifices we make in our lives that are for something greater than ourselves have a very special significance. Its part of what we’re all meant for in this lifetime.